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Jesse Kittel


Jesse Laurance William Kittel
Born 18 November 1973
Died From Accidental Overdose 28 October 1999
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jesse 24yrs
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Delicate Webs Of Pain 
Shadows in my mind again - Delicate Webs of Pain - I feel myself turned inside out - Again and yet again - I came to see you Dr Dreams - To ease my aching heart - The pain of failed and broken dreams - was tearing me apart - You gave me pills and powders - Herbs and potions too - Combining in my heart and soul - Into one unholy brew - I came to take the pain away - But you rather took my mind - With the shackles of addiction - My spirit you did bind - I'll leave you now morph, if I can - You're tearing out my heart - For all I've been and done before - I choose to live a free man - Shadows in my mind again - Delicate Webs of Pain - I feel myself turned inside out - Again and yet again.
Jesse Kittel 1998

Memories 

jesse 2yrs

Age 2
In His Favourite Stubbies
Shorts Like Dads

jesse 18yrs

Age 18
Donna's Favourite Photo

jesse 21yrs

Age 21
Our Last Photo Together

My name is Donna...
Jesse had epilepsy and had become addicted to morphine (MS Contin), which he was originally prescribed to stop the headaches and voices in his head from Bi-Polar disorder. We live in Darwin Northern Territory and the C.L.P. Government that was in power for 27 years until August 2001. While this party was in power the drug rehabilitation options were very poor, no in house rehabilitation services at all for people under 18 years or people with Co-morbidity (Mental illness and Addiction). As Jesse was Epileptic and a Manic Depressive he could not get appropriate withdrawal treatment for his addiction.

He was a great son he loved cooking and wanted to be a chief like his aunt Cindy, Uncle Jerry and Nana Peg , he made me try his new recipe's continuously needless to say since his death I have lost 3 stone. He was very intelligent Top 12% in math for the whole of Australia in the Westpac Math contest, used to write poetry and songs and was very kind to kids and old people, I remember him best dressing up as Father Xmas and delivering Glasses my good crystal ones) full of sweets to the old folks at the Riverbank Drive Old Timers Home in Katherine NT, we found out later he stole the costume to do it as he said they had no-one to love them, the thing I remember most is that he always cared for me and others, always treated women with respect and would die for his family and friends, he died at home in my arms for this I will be forever thankful as all the drug councilors said kick him out, do not support him. The bitter irony of this is, as a carer I have resuscitated several old people yet I could not bring my beautiful son back.. I'll leave you with a verse a fellow addict gave me at Jesse funeral it says it all.
 
Jesse
A soul so ancient and loving, rare in a body so young, eyes full of love and compassion, for the plight of his fellow men, To know him was to love him, he touched so many lives, but, all the good he saw in others, he couldn't see in himself, Society's loss, they couldn't see, their heavenly fathers spirit, for in rejecting Jesse, they turned their back on he. Donna I thank you for the gift, of sharing your precious son, Jesse spirit lives on in all, he loved, and who in turn loved he. His father is haunted by his loss, his half brothers Zane & Luke will miss getting to know him better, but society will certainly gain through his presence & passing. What is a mother without her son? Just like a song left unsung, Heart thinking of two, yet beating for one. 
 
In memory of my only loved son
Jesse
 
This is the tale of Jesse, the perfect mothers son, He had every thing together; he thought he was a gun. He had the pain, but he had the pills, they soon became as one It closed in slowly, he was unaware, the perfect mothers son.
 
The delicate webs of pain and the addiction were as one. The pills and powders given him were bringing him undone.
 
His mother's pain at his plight was tearing at his heart. The morph had him in its grip, holding on real fast. His mind in turmoil, his heart in pain and his soul not his to rule.
 
The delicate webs of pain and the addiction were as one. Slowly but persistently it bought every thread undone. They gave him pills and powders, herbs and potions too. Combining in his heart and soul, into one unholy brew.

He came to take the pain away, but it rather took his mind. With the shackles of addiction his spirit it did bind. The delicate webs of pain and the addiction were as one. The drugs had finally claimed his soul, nothing could be done.
 
Picks and powders, death and shadows invaded every dream. He was still his mother's son, but not half of what he had been. He fought it hard with all he had, but couldn't break its grip. 
 
The delicate webs of pain and the next deadly fix. I could sense the shadows rolling in darkening my door.
 
Just one more hit, it will be my last, how true these words become. He closed his eyes and drowned in phlegm, my beautiful tortured son. I hope to Christ, it was worth the price that never-ending dream.
 
The delicate webs of pain and the addiction were as one, The Addiction has finally gone, but so has my beautiful son. And his delicate webs of pain are forever left behind, Just as I have loved him, the PAIN IS NOW ALL MINE.
 
Donna Kittel for Jesse
18/11/73 to 28/10 /99

Postscript
My name is Donna, I am half the person I was, my heart, my soul, my reason for joy, is on this page and no longer with me in body. I find myself wandering aimlessly though life trying to better other people's lives and finding mine sadly lacking. Jesse's death has left his brother Zane and Luke with a very hard learnt lesson in life, about drug abuse. His father a shadow of himself. bereft of his first born, but the main thing is these people are our loved ones, addiction is just a part of their makeup that in no way undermines their value to us all. Jesse lives on in Jessewish.

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11/8/79 to 9/10/16
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1974-2015
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1969 - 1999
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1976 - 1997
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1985 - 2015
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Anthony Arnot
Age 32
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1997 - 2015
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1995 - 2015
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1982 - 2003
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1976 - 2009
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1972 - 1999
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1971 - 1998
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1974 - 2009
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1975 - 1993
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1974 - 1999
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1982 - 2000
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1980 - 1998
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1971 - 1999
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Peter Baynie
1976 - 1998
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1974 - 2008
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1972 - 1996
Alan Bennett
Age 55
Dean Leslie Berg 
1976 - 1997
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1981 - 1998
Bernadette Bholm 
1975 - 1997
Andrew Bird
Christopher Blake 
1970 - 2000
Terry Bliss 
1964 - 1997
Edward James Guy 
Boulton 1973 - 1996
Lynette Anne Boyle 
1974 - 2001
Chay Louise Bresingdon 
1975 - 1998
Bernard Bridges
1997 - 2001
Gena Brown
1965 - 2000
Paul Brown
1962 - 2000
Zoe Burger
1993 - 2015
Natasha Burridge 
1967 - 2000
Jennifer (Jenny) Louise
Burton 1979 - 1998
Justin Joseph Byrne
1954 - 1998
Ronnie Byrne
1976 - 2003
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Geoff Cabro
1943 - 1990
Bindi Calder
1978 - 1995
Gavin Caley
1969 - 1993
Christopher Cameron
1975 - 1999
Ian James Campbell
1967 - 1998
Jennifer Claire Campbell 
1960 - 1998
Naomi Carden
1973 - 2001
Gilbert Noel (Mick) Carey
13/7/1957 – 5/7/1995
Pamela Carey
11/8/59 – 26/4/1991
Tony Carmody
1978 - 1995
Rebeka Alice Carrodus 
1964 - 1984
Paul David Carter
1967 - 1991
Stephen Carter
1972 - 1999
Lee Daniel Cate
1979 - 1998
Robert Chaisson
1949 - 2000
Simone Chalmers 
1977 - 2000
Andrew Chan
died 2015
Rodney Raymond Chevell
1965 - 1989
 Denny Childs
1951 - 1998
Anthony Clayton
1968 - 1989
Chistopher Clayton
1974 - 1998
Michael Coats
1975 - 2004
Craig Condon
1965 - 1999
Andrew Cornwall
1968 - 1998
Darren Crookes
1975 - 2002
Brett Clem Cross
1973 - 1995
Mathew David Cross
1969 - 1997
Benjamin Cuthbert
Age 22
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Justin Patrick Daley
1959 - 1999
Phillip James Daley
1958 - 1994
Michael Daly
1978 - 2000
Greg Davies
1973 - 1994
Phillip Davies
1973 - 1995
Eric Davis
1979 - 2000
 Paul Godfrey Davis
1975 - 1998
 Joseph Anthony Deane
1974 - 2001
Michael Deane
1980 - 1998
Derriere Delaney
aged 21
Edward David Dittman
1970 - 1996
Henry Dobrowlski
1959 - 1994
Gavin Mathew Donaldson
1978 - 2004
Andrew Timothy Doyle
1975 - 1998
Michael Drakes
1985 - 2004
Michael Dransfield
1948 - 1974
Sunny Beth Dryden
1972 - 1998
Candi Dulsoon
Age 22
Jesse Dunbar-Kittel
1990 - 2015
Tony Paul Duncan
1962 - 1998
Scott Dunkley
1970 - 1999
Briohney Egan
1985 - 2010
Lachlan Etherton
- 2004
Les Ewen
1968 - 2002
Robbie Fay
1980 - 2005
Vinton Field
1976 - 1997
1972 - 2006
Graeme Flanagan
1960 - 1998
Sallie Ford
1973 - 2001
Adam Fowler
1979 - 1998
Mark Fowler
Age 47
Jay Christopher Franklin
1976 - 1998
Susan Fry
1968 - 2001
Mark Fussell
1975 - 1999
Sean Fennell
17/6/1986 to 14/12/2016
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Justin George
Benjamin Mills George
1971 - 1993
Reed Gibbs
Aaron Girardi
1970 - 1994
Linda Louise Golding
1972 - 2002
Paul Goodman
1958 - 1999
 Russell John Gordon
1975 - 2000
 Ben Gosling
1980 - 2000
Adam Gray
1969 - 1997
Buddy Green
1977 - 2001

Timothy Roger Johnson Green
1957 - 1984

Donna Greenbank
1960 - 1996

Scott Greenbank
1964 - 1994

Ian Griffiths
Age 22

Robert John Groves
1963 - 1999

Andrew Guresse
1978 - 2015

Morgan Hamilton
1985 - 2014

Dan Paul Hammond
1977 - 2000

Kyron Douglas Hansen
1975 - 1999

Louisa Hansen
1985 - 2014

Louisa Hansen
1958 - 1997

Kristen Hanson
1977 - 2011

Samuel Edward Harrison
1970 - 1997

Ben Hatten
1979 - 1997

Benjamin Hayes
1977 - 2004

Kane David Heaton
1985 - 2009

Anthony Joseph Hill
1972 - 1995

Bradley John Hill
1964 - 1988

Kylie Hitchcock
1977 - 1998

Van Howells-Myhill
1981 - 1999

Francois Hugo
1984 - 2005

Paul Ashely Irvine
1967 - 1999

Cecily Jane Irwin
1972 - 1996

  
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Mark Jackman

Anthony Jamieson

Jennifer
1987 - 2015

Joel
died 2013

Jamie Dene Johns
1971 - 2005

Kat
died 2013

Linda J Kealy
1981 - 1999

Lee Keaney
1960 - 2000

John Richard Keeble
1976 - 1998

Katie Kevlock
1986 - 2003

Lawrence Patrick King
1983 - 1997

Michael Jeffery Kirchner
1971 - 2007

Jessica Kolins
1979 - 2001

John Larocca
1973 - 1996

Leo Levy
1980 - 2015

Shaun Lincoln
1972 - 2000

Darren Line

Kevin Line

Alan Locke
1949 - 1985

Robert La Rocca
1967 - 2003

  
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Andrew MacAlpine
1970 - 2000

Brenton Steven MacDonald
1970 - 2001

Jeremy Rose MacDonald
1975 - 1990

Paul Makos
1958 - 1997

Trent Malouf
16/10/1980 - 12/07/2015

Jason Mann
1971 - 1997

Anthony Marks
1971 - 2010

Paul Markus
1958 - 1997

Stephen J Marshal
1963 - 1999

Joshua Martin
1980 - 2010

Jeremy James Mason
1978 - 2004

Luke Mather
1973 - 2012

Leigh Mathieson
1952 - 1988

Clinton Mauskasis

Paul McCrae
1975 - 1998

Duncan McGhie
1975 - 2002

Anthony John McGoldrick
1965 - 1997

Noeline McGregor
1977 - 1998

Shane McGregor
1975 - 1998

Brendan John McIver
1976 - 2003

Naomi Blanch McLemon
1974 - 1995

David McNamara
1970 - 1994

Michelle Stephanie Meredith
1980 - 2003

Tom Merson
1973 - 2002

John Millar
1965 - 1997

Craig Miller
1970 - 2000

Malcolm Moore

John Mordaunt
1957 - 1995

James Morgan
1982 - 2007

Adam PG Morris
- 1995

Gayle Morris

Paul Francis Mowbray
1963 - 1997

Lauri Mujunen
1961 - 2001

Rohan Murhpy

David Nicholas
1955 - 1999

Justin Nicholls
1971 - 1998

Malori Nicholls
1984 - 2003

Lukas Nind
23/7/81 to 17/2/10

Jamie Noble

Timothy Novelli
1973 - 1999

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Erin Michael O'Brien
1966 - 1997

Ben 'Trolley' O'Flynn
Age 19

Simon John O'Grady
1974 - 1994

Jye Roth Osbourne
1979 - 1999

Melissa Anne Owen
1971 - 1993

Warren Leslie Owens
1964 - 1998

Adrian David Palmer
1968 - 1990

Dylan Emmanual Parkins
1974 - 1996

Tina Parnell
aged 18

Luke Paton
1974 - 1998

Bradley T. Peake
1972 - 2006

Ryan Pearson
1977 - 2011

Warren Andrew Penny
1973 - 1999

Simon Perry
1974 - 1998

Edita Poljuha
1976 - 1998

Marc Robert Poynton
1956 - 1999

Ben Prior
1974 - 1999

  
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Brendon Ramage
1970 - 1997

Shawne Michael Ramsden
1968 - 1995

Miranda Ranks
1981 - 1998

Suzanna Raper
1967 - 1997

Gary Reynolds
Craig Richards

Mark Ainslie Richardson
1979 - 2000

Sarah Richardson
1982 - 2005

Ted Riley
1977 - 2000

Emily Kate Rinder
1978 - 1999

Yasmine Roberts
- 2002

Bradley Rochford
1960 - 1992

Susanna Roper
1968 - 1998

Jay Rosenstrauss
1982 - 2007

Craig Rosewood
1968 - 1989

Kingston Rosewood
1966 - 1990

Jamie Lee Rowe
1985 -2016

Robert John Ruler
8/11/1960 - 15/1/1985

Stacey Sarah Rummins
1980 - 1997

Wayne Russell
1966 - 1995

Anthony Russell-Arnot
1967 - 2000

Mark David Ryan

Tony Ryan
1956 - 1997

  
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Jim Sanders
1979 - 1999

Ryan Mckaig Santos
1973 - 1998

Michael John Scaife
1979 - 2000

Todd Anthony Schou
1975 - 2009

Gregory Lew Schultz
1976 - 1997

Brett L Schuyler
1955 - 2005

Troy Scott
1977 - 2011

Michael Serrafis
1968 - 2002

Shariff

Timothy James Sharp
Aged 43

Sacsham Shem
Aged 28

Victor Shive
1957 - 2000

Cathy Siefken
2001

Craig Skeers
1975 - 1997

Kane Sleeman
1975 - 2002

Grant Richard Small
1967 - 1999

Dan Smith
6/7/71 to 13/2/13

Lee Marie Spencer
1968 - 1995

Shane Spiteri
1974 - 1999

Peter Stephens
1960 - 1996

Mark William Stevens
1975 - 1999

Amber Stewart
1985 - 2000

Ian Stewart
1954 - 1996

Robert Stewart
1965 - 1999

Damien Stirling
1968 - 1994

Jessica Stopira
1977 - 2004

Preston Strahan
1983 - 1999

Paul Strathern
1961 - 1998

Myaran Sukumaran
died 2015

Joshua W Sutton
1978 - 2002

Paul Leslie Sutton

Cassidy James Sweeney
23/4/1972 - 24/7/1998

Tom Sylva
1978 - 2007

  
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Jade Victoria Tanner
1981 - 1997

Keith Tedesco
1978 - 1997

Tony Terroni II
1975 - 1997

Steven Terry
1978 - 2000

Mark Thomas
1963 - 1990

Bill Thompson
1960 - 2000

Bernard Thompson
1963 - 1984

William Thompson
1975 - 2015

Nicole Louisa Thurn
1981 - 2007

Ross Tomilson
1979 - 2010

Debbie Treadwell
1967 - 2000

Guy Wayne Tremain
1970 - 1997

Warren Tweedie
1964 - 1998

James Unicomb
1982 - 2005

Jamie Christopher Valentine
1973 - 1997

David Valmadre
1970 - 1994

Amy Viles
1994 - 2015

Erika Von Cerva
1957 - 1987

Melissa Vreeken
1970 - 2001

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Joshua Wagner
1982 - 2001

Mathew Walden
1976 - 1996

Randy Walker
1960 - 2002

Vance Walker
1970 - 2007

Christopher Wallace
1967 - 1987

Peter John Walsh
1970 - 1997

Skye Davenport Walton
1979 - 1997

Jason Wargo
1983 - 2000

Meg Warren
1977 - 1998

Darryl Webster
1971 - 2000

Grant Weir
1975 - 1999

Hannah Patrice West
1981 - 1997

Shaun Peter Western
1970 - 2000

Dieter Wheeler
1967 - 2000

Julian White
1975 - 1998

James Bernard Williams
1961 - 1991

Luke Anthony Williamson
1983 - 2003

David Lee Wilson
1977 - 2000

Glen Leslie Wilson
1962 - 2003

Kevin Wilson
1972 - 2004

Trevor Wilson
1972 - 1998

James Robert Windle
1980 - 2004

Jennifer Wittberger
1973 - 1994

Leigh Wood
1956 - 1989

Cameron Luke Worsley
1970 - 1997

Daniel Wren
1982 - 2008

Adam Wright
1972 - 1998

Christopher George Wright
1978 - 1996

Alicia Noela Zorgati/Murphy
1977 - 2011